Saturday, October 22, 2011

My Ruler Scales

Year and a half. That is how long it has been since I bothered to write even a word here. Pathetic blogging. SO not proud of myself. Truth is, I have begun, on various occasions, to write something heartfelt. Well, heartfelt is the only way I know how to write. I guess it is true of every person who has ever written a word , if you don't feel it, you can't put it into words. Unfortunately, have been keeping a lot of feelings locked up somewhere, hence was never able to complete a single post.
Even today, I have no idea if this will be posted. So if it will be, good for me!!!
What is this post about? Well, about quite easily the most valuable and important assets of anyone's life, my Friends.
It sometimes takes a significant life event, tragedy, achievement or epiphany to truly sift out the best of friends who deserve a place in your life. And the sifting out is more precise in times of distress than happiness. Funny how the human psych works. :)
So I have had a few moments of distress in life over the past few months, nothing quite dramatic or heart wrenching, just a few health issues which landed me in the hospital, with tubes in my arms and pathetic chemicals in my system, a couple of times. And the funny thing is, they were the most awesome days. Don't get me wrong, I was worried as shit for my health, but I had my amazing family (they ALWAYS come first, no matter WHAT anyone does for you) and a set of friends who REFUSED to leave me alone for even a second. Oh how you love it when someone tells you, "I am sorry I have to leave you and go home, I wish I could just stay with you in the hospital".
This post is not a thank you to any one of them. God knows I can not even begin to thank any of my friends for what they do, this is just an acknowledgement of what they mean to me. Following are just some of the people who have been there with me, through some of the most torrid times and also the best, who share every happiness with me as if they could feel it too, who celebrate every achievement with me as if it was their own, and who make every moment of desperation and sadness go away just by being who they are.

Deepak, My brother: For a good part of our lives, we have disagreed on almost everything we have thought of. I am glad that now, finally, we agree on one thing, that we mean a lot to each other. I know it took you going to UK for me to realize that you mean everything to me. Hopefully our relationship will become stronger as time goes by. And hopefully, I will be able to fulfill all the promises I have ever made to you. Thank you for being the most amazing elder brother I could have ever wanted.

Aneesha: Every moment since you have entered our lives, we have been thankful for all that you have given us. For me, you are the most AMAZING member of my family yet, because you have brought us all much closer than we could have ever imagined. I know you will pamper me someday as your younger brother, for now, I am content with just having those super awesome debates we have. :)

Vishal Nakate: This is one guy who has a heart made of GOLD, pure solid 24 Karat GOLD!!! He will do ANYTHING for you. He will be the friend who will be so possessive about you that you feel you don't NEED another friend in life if you have him. I remember the hug you gave me on New Year's eve this year, it communicated each and every moment of care you have ever felt for me. I need to thank some moment of fate that landed us together dude. Because you have made life so much more practical. I know that you think more practically than most people I have, and it is this practicality that has made me a big fan of yours dude!!!Love you a lot!!!

Anita Kanoje: Listed as my daughter on FB (:P), she is one person who is LIKE me. Almost a female version of me, with possibly less nakhras :P. We became friends only after college, and I pity myself for having lost out on years of some amazing friendship. You have been my sounding board for every wayward thought that has ever come to mind, only because you understand most of them before they are formed even in MY head. No week is fulfilling without a visit to Aromas and some gossip and philosophical bullshit with you. :)

Dallas Dias: You remain the only guy in my life who is possibly more emotional than I am, and that is a VERY tough emotional quotient to beat my friend. I have lost count of the number of times we have discussed the same things again and again and come to the same conclusions every time. I know our choices don't match (Well up until lately at least!!!) in most respects, but we are pretty much the same in the way we think and live. Thanks man. Without you, office would have been a depressingly horrid place to go to 5 times a week. I promise I will teach you how to bike before Goa :P

Pranay Karwa: You remain the Antithesis to me, even 2 years after college, we still have the same talks, maybe about different people now. I know if some of our chats were leaked, people could sue us for defamation :P Listening to your HYPERBOLES always makes me wonder what if I was like you :P. Nah, as you can imagine, we both can't imagine me doing what you do :P Thanks for everything man, some of the dialogues we had late into the night will remain the best talks about love, life and friendship (not to forget girls) I have had the privilege of being a part of.

No, I have not FORGOTTEN you Shweta Shukla , I have just kept you for the finale. As the person who deserves a whole post to herself, you can wait a while to read good things about you. As I maintain, someone up there is REALLY REALLY happy with me for having given me the pleasure and privilege of having you as a friend. Just being friends with you would have been enough payment for all the good deeds I have ever done, but No, God is kind, and we have been best friends for a long while now. It is your strength and friendship that has kept me intact in these tough times, your messages and love that give me the strength to face anything without dreading the worst, and also your wisdom in the unlikeliest of times that makes pain bearable. Thank you Baa, for being the most amazing human being to have ever been in my life. Calling you an angel is still stereotyping what you mean to me and limiting your purpose in my life. I think you give being friends a whole different meaning, when you live every moment for others, the purity of smile that you have is what you get. Cannot say this enough to you, Love you baa.

I know this is a LONG post, it has been a part of my head for a while, feels good to get it out finally. Maybe I have missed out on a few people here, maybe they will be part of another post some other day. For now, these are the people that are making this human birth worth fighting for. Thank you All. Can't love you enough. You are the measures of my life.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

Your blog looks awesome!! Thanks for the 'Amazing' bit ;) And I will always have a soft corner (during debates) for you vis-a-vis Deepak COZ you would eventually enter 'THE' clan :D

P.S.: You are inspiring me to start blogging!!

Unknown said...

Good to see something back on here...and we both know things are going to get better from now on...I know it has taken a long time, but its never too late

Anupam Gupta said...

Aneesha...Thank you...yes, we are in the same CLAN..:P

Deepak, Thanks..means a lot..:)